A Message From Your Father (Part 1)

I Have Good Days Too! 😂😂

To avoid anyone thinking, “Oh wow! She’s a sadist after all.” No. I don’t always have bad days lol. In fact, I actually have more amazing-good days. The “bad days”, usually, at least for now come from a state of mind of feeling useless and feeling like I need to do something but I’m not. Or having things to do and being overwhelmed by my schedule that I begin to think I’m a flunk.

The truth, I have the Holy Spirit, literally, so I have more good and great days and the bad days are just a result of the fallen nature of our world. Not every day will be good and that’s why I wanted to share. I wanted to share that I can be tongue speaking, have access to the throne of heaven, spirit filled and still feel worthless on some days and feel sooo down that I just want to crawl into a cave and hide, and yes, sometimes die. You’re not alone in that don’t worry.

But right now, I’m actually pretty good. I have things on my plate, my schedule is no different than it was back in February, but I don’t feel overwhelmed. I have a few things I’m preparing for. I’m trying to shake some people from off my back lol😂, but the sun is literally out and also shining in my life and yes, I feel good.

We have good days too. As long as we are on this earth, we’ll have good days and bad days. But the difference between myself and someone else who stays in that darkness or has concluded that life is always worthless and there’s no hope is my access to the only One who can always take that darkness away. And every single time He is constantly chasing after me. Always, even when I make the wrong turn. He tends to grab me gently by the shoulders and literally turn me back on the right path. His hands will always still stay on my shoulder until my steps are steady on that right path before He eventually let’s go of my shoulders, still walking with me but teaching me to walk confidently with Him.

He never leaves. He always follows me when I turn towards the darkness and even enter. He always enters the darkness with me, to find me when I’m hopelessly searching for a way out, and takes my hand in the darkness and leads me back to the light. I cannot do that myself. I don’t want to, not anymore. So I share when I enter the darkness and I will also share, as He has instructed, when He leads me out of the darkness into really bright skies.

Someone reading this will think that’s not me. He doesn’t do this with me. That’s why I’ve been instructed to write this, He does this to everyone! His patience knows no bounds. He doesn’t try and try and try and try and try and then stop. No He keeps trying, keeps working in the shadows in our lives to ensure we find a light somehow. How do I know He hasn’t left you? You’re currently reading this. He orchestrated this, not for me to showcase my writing skills but for you to know He is right there right now. Yes! I mean right now! Beside you! In that darkness, in that filth, in that sin, just like He has always been with me He is with you right now!

He doesn’t love like we do. He doesn’t care like we do. His love appears foolish in our eyes. Unconditional, no criteria or prerequisites. He has no preferences. He doesn’t love me more than He loves you. I hope you know that. I will always be grateful for His love but never ever think I’m better than the next person because He loves us all the same way!

Someone may never have heard this before but you don’t believe in Him does not mean He loves you less. He loves you just the way He loves me, and I believe in Him! The same way! What happens when we believe in Him is we step into access. We become who we were made to be in such a complete way. We finally become whole, We finally restore our access to our producer. Our Author and our Finisher.