I Know Who My Husband Is!

Oh Don’t Worry, You Heard Right😏

I have known God all my life. And I hear the Holy Spirit these days, telling me to embrace that truth. Embrace the fact that I have known God, I have seen Him, and I have constantly and consistently learnt from Him all my life. I’ve seen His love send my family an Angel to sit guard over my siblings and I. I have felt Him in the books I read growing up and conversed with Him without even understanding, back then, that because I recognized Him, because I had already accepted Him, whether I believed it at the time or not, He was and has been present, always, listening to me and working for me.

Now a whilleeeeee back I made a few statements and said the Holy Spirit and I are working on these currently and we’ll drop notes on these topics soon. That soon has stretched out and I’ve come to realise that my writings and my thoughts are allowed to take time and it won’t always drop every week, or every day. He is in charge of how it flows because He makes sure the right things flow. He always makes sure that I take all the time I need to collect my thoughts properly merged with truth from His word. Which brings me to this very topic. ‘I Know Who My Husband Is! Oh Don’t Worry, You Heard Right😏!’

Recently, we have been on the topic of relationships, He and I. He has been helping me dissect my thoughts and certain patterns in my life so far, using those I’ve recently met and more importantly, helping me evaluate the relationships of the past. And when I say ‘relationships’ I don't mean I’ve been in relationships in the past, nope😂. But talking stages, potentials, friendships, and most importantly my growth and maturity in this regard so far. So I mentioned knowing who my husband is and I halted on writing about it because I began to doubt. Certain circumstances and my ‘situation’ (let me just leave this in a quote, I’ll explain it later), began to question my conviction.

The spontaneity of God’s manifestation, and my belief that He has chosen this method to reveal things to me and to also write in this manner, showed up literally right now as I’m writing (11:45, May 21st). I am currently watching a sit and talk with Stephanie Ike Okafor and I began to drift off. Kind of like an imagination, but it felt real, and I realise they have all felt real. The sounds I could hear in the background of her voice sounded like Christmas tunes, and my mind began to create as always.

What do I see? I see this guy again. I’ve been seeing him since forever. Honestly, I am only just paying attention to the fact that it’s the same guy, same feeling. Guess what? I don’t know Him. And, unfortunately, I can’t clearly make out his face just yet, but it’s usually the same feeling I get everytime I create a story in my head with him. Kind of like the stories are made up, but the man is real. I know how it sounds lol😂😂. But I’m deciding to trust the way God speaks to me and that’s through my feelings.

I just found out I’m a Feeler, which is one of the four prophetic personalities in Havilah’s book ‘Created To Hear God’, and I plan to confidently exercise this prophetic personality of mine and trust God to always speak to me through my feelings. What stirred me to write this now is obviously I began to drift off and then the words started forming. Something along the lines of “I know who my husband is and the major reason why, asides several other smaller factors, I haven’t been in a relationship and I am not in a hurry to be in one, is because it feels like I’m cheating or I’m betraying him wherever he is if I do”.

Kind of like God is keeping me, not necessarily for a man, but there’s no need to be with anyone else. He is preparing the guy and I for something and maybe that’s my consecration. My consecration to remain pure physically, is for a reason. I can only choose to trust God and His process. Funny how I am prepared to be wrong, but as I dive deeper with God these doubts disappear and all that’s left is a strong conviction, a strong feeling deep in the base of my throat, forcing to burst through into my heart, that this is God and this is the plan.

My mum said one time that God doesn’t create just one person for you. I mean imagine this; You and this bone of your bone are in different continents, and then he finds someone else he thinks is the bone of his bone and they get married, does that mean you end up alone? You never connect with someone else? You’ve lost ‘your bone of your bone’? No. I don’t think so. God isn’t cruel. He is the greatest planner of all time. He knows the outcome of every possible situation, so I can guarantee you, you won’t end up alone. There’s always someone else He prepares. Always. Just like He told Elijah, when the prophet thought it was just him who hadn’t bowed to Baal, He had seven thousand men asides Elijah, who hadn’t bowed to Baal back then and I believe the same applies here.

But then there’s also the fact God knows our destinies, and He knows who best to connect us with in fulfilling that destiny and He is in control, so He will ensure that that man, His son, who loves and fears Him and listens to Him, also waits to connect with you. It doesn’t mean that if a man who could have been your destiny partner but chose the wrong path and ended up with someone else, he is the only one God has for you. Nahhh.

You see, the tricky thing with destiny, yeah, God only leads us to the most qualified not just for us, but more importantly, our destiny.

Are we willing to defy society’s marriage expectancy?

Are we willing to be patient?

Are we willing to trust Him to lead us to the most qualified?

I’ve always told God that I refuse to settle. And I’m tired of trying to hold on to the hope that every guy who talks to me could be the one. No. I want to be confident in my ‘knowing’. Turns out I’m also a ‘Knower’ 🤭. And I choose to Know and trust the ‘Knowing’ God has blessed me with.

Society has, majorly, a patriarchal mindset; they only think along the lines of ‘men need to find the right woman’. But this isn’t culture or tradition. Reality proves that we are a physical realm that serves as a small manifestation of the bigger realm which is spiritual. And in this realm, Jesus has come and broken every societal boundary and limitation placed contrary to God’s original plan. He has shared power and authority equally amongst men AND women, in Him.

So, I also NEED the right man. And I will wait even if it means till eternity for that partner suitable for me. The partner I have always envisioned and I promise you, it has nothing to do with physique, I will wait for that partner I envision is the BEST candidate for my destiny here on this earth.

Shalom!