I’m not the best friend to Him, but He has always been to me and still is.
The One who has led me all my life. The One I spoke to all those days in the bathroom at Oyemekun Street, detailing my day; my likes, dislikes, approvals, disapprovals, insecurities, securities ... .everything.
He is misunderstood.
He is underestimated.
He is pushed aside most times; unnoticed.
His person is so real. As real as God, The Father and God, The Son.
Who do people know Him as?
What do people know Him for?
I started this journey with God, journaling my relationship with each of them, the beautiful Holy Trinity. I think I stopped at God The Father, which I believe I still haven’t done justice to just yet. But I realise it’s something I’ll keep editing and building upon as I continue on this journey of life with all of them. There’s so much to write about each of them.
Today though, I woke up earlier than is common to me, and I could not sleep back. Not the first time in my life this is happening, not the first time I’m actually standing up to investigate it. But this time is different. This time I’m mature enough to understand why and to act knowingly.
Anyway, I woke up, and He was on my mind.
The Holy Spirit.
He first directed me to listen to ‘Holy Spirit’ by Greatman Takit, then ‘Burn’ by Esua and Steph Ade.
It was on the second song that it struck me to write this.
Listening to the first song, usually I paid more attention to the second part of the song where it details what the Holy Spirit does. I mean it is Greatman’s best part of the song. But this morning, I was led to focus on the words of the first part.
He talks to me all the time, through so many ways, especially through songs. Every songs I listen to. He is the One who has met me wherever I am and revealed God to me there.
He connects me to the Father.
In fact, I feel closer to Him than Jesus Christ.
I think of my Older Brother, my Saviour and I hide and cry. What He did just gets me all the time. My in was indeed great and His love greater.
But the Holy Spirit, I go to Him easily.
I ask Him about God.
I ask Him about life.
I ask Him about love.
I ask Him about family.
I ask Him about tomorrow.
I tell Him everything.
I tell Him my sins.
I tell Him my insecurities.
I cry to Him all the time.
I tell Him about my day, every tiny detail my mind can allow me to remember. Even this, He helps me because my mind do be wandering 😂.
He centers me.
He grounds me.
He holds me.
He comforts me.
He teaches me. Has done so all my life.
He builds my confidence.
He reveals me to me.
He accepts me.
He understands me. My biggest desire. To the point where I ask Him if anyone else can as He does, and I know no one ever will. But He said to me, they don’t need to be Him for me to connect with them or accept them. People don’t need to understand me to be understood.
He reveals people to me. He literally gists me about people. A few people have said I messaged them at the right time and it’s been Him. He reminds me of people because it’s such a human thing to be so focused on our lives alone, our grind and pursuit, that everyone else fades into the background. He reminds me to pray for people and not for anything kingdom related or because I’m Christian. Instead, He teaches me to do it out of love for these people.
He teaches me to do everything from a place of love and calls me out when I don’t or my humanity begins to shine through.
He exposes me to me. All of my parts. I do something, He’s actively checking it and correcting me. He shows me how to live.
He shows me how to live. What to do and what not to do. He calls me out when I’m not true to myself.
He shows me how to love. How to go about it and how not to go about it. He calls me out when I don’t get it but from a place of love.
He shows me how to talk. What to say and what not to say and why. He calls me out when I say the wrong things.
He shows me how to think. What to think and what not to think and why.
He properly explains things to me. What it means to be a Christian. Why I should not do, talk, think or love like that and not from a place of religion, but an understanding, especially from scriptures. And it always solidifies and strengthens my faith in the existence of all Three.
I mentioned earlier that Jesus Christ is my Older Brother. Some people might see this and react in a religious way😏😂. But, younger me made a song and she grouped the three of them in their place of relationship in her life and I honor her and that sweet revelation she had and I accept.
Especially because Jesus Christ introduced me to my Best Friend, the Holy Spirit. He knew I needed Him and at that young age, He stood over me, protectively and watched as The Holy Spirit and I connected and He knew that’s who I needed to do life with. He knew that when I sang ‘Just Like You’ by Cece Winans and sang it deeply and from my heart; a heart’s prayer: the best kind…..that was the answer I was searching for.
He teaches me how to approach God, the Father. I always saw The Father, my Father as this big entity that I just watched from afar and He watched me too but we didn’t speak to ourselves. That I went to Him to take care of my needs. To tell me what to do, then run straight back to the Holy Spirit to help explain to me what my Father said.
But this is also still a part of Him. A dimension. There’s so much about Him I am yet to unlock.
The power of the Holy Spirit?! Goosebumps.
His wrath?! Dangerous.
He is Super patient though, but if He is provoked like provoked provoked, which almost never happens because of how patient He is, it’s unforgivable, irreconcilable.
He is Powerful.
He is not a fairy.
He is not a child.
He is not my mate.
I still need to properly honor and revere Him.
He is not One to be taken for granted.
He is indeed the Spirit of God in us.
He indeed knows the Heart of the Father.
He is present in every believer.
He is limited in how He manifests Himself in each person though, to the degree of how much we allow Him because He is such a gentleman.
Don’t limit Him please. (God please help me not to.)
I have to stop here for now, but this is definitely not the end
Will definitely update as led. Right now, this is all He wants me to share.
Happy Sunday!